Total Eclipse of the Heart;

~~Saturday, October 31, 2009~~

10/31/2009 11:02:00 PM

today wanted to go out with my fren celebrated halloween day , but when i wake up my leg cramp until i cnt move at all ..:(:(:( i still prefer to go out celebrate with someone , but i don know can.. i will nvr give up ..

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Friday, October 30, 2009~~

10/30/2009 11:14:00 PM

i cnt waste too much time .. gt to do all my lab thing

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Thursday, October 29, 2009~~

10/29/2009 07:43:00 PM

i really miss the past i have been

expressing the emptiness inside me..

10/29/2009 02:30:00 AM

i really want to say none of ur business..

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Wednesday, October 28, 2009~~

10/28/2009 11:33:00 PM

most of my lab classmate , all feel very tired n feel like sleepy...

thn i told them let tell each other a joke so that it can keep e time pass more fast.. today we whole day play chess n the joke

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, October 27, 2009~~

10/27/2009 11:08:00 PM

after the day we having nafa... was so tired ... no energy to move n tired

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Monday, October 26, 2009~~

10/26/2009 11:08:00 PM

so tired after my nafa... but stil fail on it.. sad ... finally she wrote her blog le ..

expressing the emptiness inside me..

10/26/2009 02:20:00 AM

wonder what u doing nw. *xxxhxx*today quite alot customer come in my shop.. got some customer quite funny.. she bring her son come n say her son now grow up le.. but he wan buy the boxer for him .. N i tell her what is e inch he wear for her pant normally then i take for size for her son, but she say her son grow up n ask me take a size biggest thn tat.. tat really funny . she keep say her son was in e process of growing n scare later e size to small for him .. then i was like ok i take for you .. i really miss our memories ... i really hope you was there ..

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Friday, October 23, 2009~~

10/23/2009 11:37:00 PM

was slacking in e fyp.. i n fyp clsmates all playing e puzzle challenger that i n her playing tgt..

i long time she nvr reply me le.. hope u see i have improve

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Thursday, October 22, 2009~~

10/22/2009 09:25:00 PM

ytd having forth day of FYP .. it like so bored .. my teammate no come .. cnt do my wrk.. slack over there .. aft 4 i gg for my marketing jus go there mark attention thn go for my nafa training .. starting i was oon form .. when aft run at lvl 3 of al over the school n must run by 7 mins..
aft run that i feel my leg like gg to cramp.. but i tell myself not give up.. i tink of her .. so i tell myself don go dwn i tell myself i cn wan.. memories wont fade away from my mind

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, October 20, 2009~~

10/20/2009 11:14:00 PM

i saw my team mates gg presentation today .. and the teacher like shoot him alot question but he not very sure how to say.. n imagine whn it is my turn to presentation , don knw how will that been. today 21 octber is 6 months it we still tgt .. i really hope you see my blog.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

10/20/2009 11:14:00 PM

i feel so sian .. like don know what to strt to do first, today i was wearing bermuda n slipper for my second day of school start and this was my last time wearing that.. The supervision say we cant wear it and must wear jean n cover shoes...
so sad..

i really miss e past that i have n oso i wish another one is with her..

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Monday, October 19, 2009~~

10/19/2009 07:31:00 PM

today was dont know my bad day...i forget to bring my ez-link... so sian n sad... thn have to go buy a new one for it.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Sunday, October 18, 2009~~

10/18/2009 07:01:00 PM

Today was working and no had any sales .. maybe i still dont have feel to work when i saw alot couple came in and was so happy and touches but me oso , dont know why will happening that .. i asking myself .. i think i have improve some part but still got what part still need to improve on it.. i really dont wanna our r/s change to fade...
normaly on sunday when i call you after awhile sure got customer buy le but now nomore ..i really misses you alot esther esther .. i really wish can call u dear or lao po bck..

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Saturday, October 17, 2009~~

10/17/2009 11:34:00 PM

today was staying at hme doing nothing .. I really want to be e person to fill u up with all e humours that i can give.. i hope you can see it .. i cant wait to give u whn u give me a chance..

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Friday, October 16, 2009~~

10/16/2009 02:54:00 PM

today i do not went any place.. but wake up very late..

today i see ur blogspot i feel very sad when you say today is ur rotten day for u .. i wish the bad luck go away for u n i giv al my luck to u .. hope u dont have any rotten again...

i want to see u happy .. <3esther

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Thursday, October 15, 2009~~

10/15/2009 10:00:00 PM

today i going for my gym. when i leave my hse , i saw cloud so dark , feel like it is going rain heavy so i went hme to take umbrella .. But whn i reached the woodland stadium and it rain

.. As normal i take all e exercise that i should do.. But today i trained it less then 1hr thn i went hme.

i see that time like she gg to end cls but i wanted to give her umbrella becuz i knw her wont bring it .. ya .. But i scare she angry at me n more hate me .. i really hope i can do it n you wont scold meor hate me

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Wednesday, October 14, 2009~~

10/14/2009 11:11:00 PM

i ytd need to wake up early thn go to my workplace there know how to use the
new cash register ... Then i saw melvin there oso .. look like so long nvr c we all together
talking le..

I don't know what i can do to make you chat with me .. Thn my workplace oso got one girl call "esther"
she like to laugh but i prefer you smile... i really want to see your dimple n your smile again ,
i really hope can go out with you again i dont know what happening that make you
change so fst. i really sorry :(:(

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, October 13, 2009~~

10/13/2009 09:46:00 AM

Today i went to the gym to exercise,then i saw my friend together with his girlfriend then i thought how sweet will it be when i am together with her. i really miss you and i don't see you online today.. i feel sad..Baby i'll wait for you .. i really hope that you will sms me saying that u miss me and still have me in your heart..

i really feel very sad whenever i go to the gym because i lost a very important thing that has all our memories in it..i hope u will sms me soon..

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Monday, October 12, 2009~~

10/12/2009 11:21:00 PM

this have been going for 1 month plus already..
i have been asking myself..
that must be very coincident that everything can remind me of her even more..

i really want to shout out loud " I love you esther..
I want to use my method on winning you back..
Hope you will give me a last chance to prove myself..

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Sunday, October 11, 2009~~

10/11/2009 10:45:00 PM

Today i dreamt that she gave me a chance again. But today no one disturbed me. So sweet. I really want her to feel my care and concern. I miss you Esther .
I hope that everything will go back to normal again when it was sweet in the first few
months . :D:D

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Saturday, October 10, 2009~~

10/10/2009 10:05:00 AM

I am so happy she replied me. I tired many times to sms her but she never reply.

But after i send a happy bday msg to her mom wishing her happy
bday.

I was delighted that she replied me. i wish she would go out with me. But she oso have to take care of her health.. ngo oi ney esther

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Friday, October 9, 2009~~

10/09/2009 09:46:00 AM

Today I had a rough day , I lost a very valueable and precious item that belong to us.
It had all good memories engraved into it.

Then I immediately went to find every single place in the gym looking for it high and low. Then my friend offered me his help. To know avail.

Then I ask the people running the gym to inform me when they have found it.

:(:(:(:(

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Thursday, October 8, 2009~~

10/08/2009 08:39:00 AM

Today i have a pleasant dream that esther give me a chance to be with her and i tell myself that i would not make her angry again. I was so happy until i cry but my mom wake me up and it spoil my dream.. But this is the second time that i dream .. I really hope the dream really came true..

After i wake up, i go on9 ,thn i saw her online too . After that i wanted to say hello to her but she reply me "y r u still puttng our pictures? zzz" thn i say "i cherish every pic that we have"

then she reply me "cus ure stubborn" but i wanted to reply "i been stubborn in a good sense"

but she offline ... :( :(

Thn i waited for the rain become a drizzling . when it became the drizzling i went to the gym..

i went to the gym i ask one of the person over there teach me more about how to gain muscle

finish my gym i go cosway point bought some food to eat.. thn i go bought cheese cake for my family..

today i just make a good deed that is helping the person bought a thing.. they say help the poor children .. she say *good heart really have good deed* n i buy it but i dont wan any good deed , i just to have esther back to me.. that all i wanted ..

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Wednesday, October 7, 2009~~

10/07/2009 11:51:00 AM

ii today wake up late thn cant make iit to go gym. But ii later receiive alot miiss call .. iis some my fren who call me to go out n thy tryiing let me forget her.. but when we rch amk hub. ii really remember ii n her when those memories that we have been there ..

imanage to watch properly the movie "aliens".. Her parent call her up and ask her to come back becuz she didnt tell her parent.. N her parent sms her said "you want i cane you or confiscate her fone away" i was worry her mom take away her fone.. i don know what i going to contact her..

i was trying to make myself to control myself for thinking of her n but i cant.. i really wan giive her all e best of me.. But just few week can make her change so much.. i really down n sad.. i watching a drama show n was almost the same as me ..

TmL i gOt WakE eArlY foR gym if not later alot ppl le..

You will nvr fade away for my heart n mind..

I lOvE You esther -NgO Oii NeY esther

hope you see i nvr the same as wat i have before.

must take care ur eyes n don eat too much oily food.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, October 6, 2009~~

10/06/2009 11:34:00 AM

Is this right ???
i was always ask myself , why should i so sticky on you.. ans:"I was afraid to lose you"..

This is what she wrote it "I'm glad to have made the right choice"
After she write this , i really feel hurt alot.. My fren ask my to give up .. But I ask myself why oso "i still want to continue becuz i love her" ..
Will you so easy forget a happy memories?

I really change alot firstly is strt make myself more attractive n but i need to improve my english.. I n her fate still have ..

I hope you can see my blog as well.. :(:(:(

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Monday, October 5, 2009~~

10/05/2009 10:33:00 AM

today so many thing to do.. firstly have to go my workplace take thing , secondly whn i reach home my friend call me and tell me to go gym at woodlands stadium . so i training alot of my arm and chest there..
after that we going for dinner at causeway point eat alot of meat to restore our energy ..

after reach home i go see internet stuff.. i saw it.. it really make me very hurt.. The girl "xXxxX" i like scold me swear word. i really dont ask her fren to say but her fren say "i will let her know it" but i think she dont believe what i say and more hatre me..

expressing the emptiness inside me..